Torn

I feel like I'm letting Noah down.

We are starting breastfeeding - not just dry feeding - and of course it's right when I went back to work part time and can't be up there all day.  It's 45 minutes each way and gas prices are already killing us, so it's almost impossible to be up there more than once a day. 

Noah needs me so much right now and I feel like I'm failing him.

I don't know what to do. I feel so torn. :(