Not going home

The verdict is in:  I will be here until Noah comes.  The risk is too great and we live too far for me to go home.  Surprisingly, I'm okay with this.  I'm comfortable with that answer because logistically it would be tough to drive up here every day and also NOT do too much while at home.   And if something were to happen, I could never forgive myself, as I know I'd second guess every extra step, everything I lifted, any time I wasn't resting.   Not to mention I'd be driving around with my suitcase knowing that we could have been readmitted at any time.  This truly is the best place for Noah and I.